Kitty's Lab ((Open for anyone))
Jun. 11th, 2004 @ 11:07 am
Kitty was staring hard at the program she was running on her computer. She wasn't happy with how long it was taking for her to do this assignment and she had promised Big Brother that this new program would be ready for him in two days.
"Damn it," she whispered. "What am I missing?"
She continued letting her fingers fly along the keyboard as she continued adding and editing code on her system. There was something not right about this program she was created and she was getting frustrated as test after test resulted in failure.
Kathryn Pryde did not fail. Shadowcat did not fail.
As she was staring at the lines of code, she suddenly face palmed and threw her pencil down as she finally saw the mistake.
She was so involved in her work that she didn't hear the door to her lab opening up.
Jean opened the door just as Kitty threw her pencil across the room. Jean grabbed it with her TK it keep it from hitting the floor and floated back to Kitty's desk.
"Rough day?" She asked as she walked over to Kitty.
Kitty smiled at Jean, very happy to see her friend.
"You could say that," she sighed, rubbing her temples. "I've been working on this project for Big Brother and I was up all night trying to figure out why I was getting so many errors in the program code. I think I have it figured out, though." She looked at Jean. "How about you?"
Jean leaned a hip against the desk and folded her arms as she listen to Kitty explain her problem. "Well, at least you've figured it out." She said with a smile. "I'm doing well. Things have been pretty quiet the last few days." She said, tapping her head with a finger. "They usually are after a raid, people tend to quiet down for a while. They get scared." She sighed. "So, other than fighting with computer programs, how are you?"
"Moonstar must be happy about that, then."
Kitty was silent for a moment as she stared at her computer, going over things in her mind, trying to decide how much she should or could say to Jean. Jean was probably her closest friend, but she still was hesitant to talk about things that bothered her.
"I guess I'm doing alright," she said softly. "The different programs for Big Brother keep me busy...it's not like I'm able to lseep very well right now, so I work all day and all night."
"We're all happy. Less voices means less headaches."
Jean tiled her head and looked at Kitty. She could sense her confused thoughts but didn't pry. She never pried unless she had to, or she sensed something that shouldn't be there.
"You should take a break. Too much lack of sleep isn't healthy. Big Brother would understand, I think. You're no good to him if you get sick." She smiled softly. "I haven't been getting much either, if it makes you feel better. Though my reasons are entirely personal."
Kitty turned and look Jean in the eyes. "Headaches and stress are keeping me awake at night, Jean. Stress causes the migraines that I sometimes get to be worse and I can't sleep." She sighed. "I'm scared, Jean...scared that I don't do enough for the party...for Big Brother. You're my family and I just worry that I'm not doing enough for you or for Big Brother. Yes...I run the computers and I build and fix the machines...but sometimes I worry that I'm going to let you down...let him
down and I don't want to do that."
Kitty ran a nervous hand through her hair, not quite believing that she had let her guard down like that. She wasn't afraid to talk to Jean, because Jean knew that she was loyal and would never do anything against the party. She just usually made sure that she was tough and unapproachable.
She turned back to her computer. "I'm sorry, Jean. I know you have your own things on your mind and I don't know why I started babbling like that."
Jean sat down in a chair across from Kitty and took her hand in hers, giving it a squeeze.
"No, Kitty. Don't applogies. It's okay. I'm you're friend, that's what I'm here for." She said with a smile. "And I don't think you're letting anyone down. You try you're hardest and that's all anyone can ask of you. Big Brother isn't disappointed with you and neither is anyone else. You work just as hard, if not harder than the rest of us. And you do a great job."
Jean really meant everything she said. Kitty was a loyal, hard worker and she always put everyone and everything before herself. No one could doubt her.
"I think you should stop stressing. It's not good for you." She said, hoping that she was cheering her friend up. "Why don't you take a break this weekend, and you and I can spend some time together. We'll have a girls night out. What do you say?" She asked, hopefully.
Kitty smiled at Jean and squeezed her hand back.
"I would like that, Jean. You're probably right, I am stressing too much for nothing and I think a girls night out would be a wonderful thing to do."
Kitty liked and respected Jean, and her friendship---as well as her words---meant a great deal to her.
Jean smiled. "Good. It's a date then. Let me know what night works best for you and I'll pencil you in."
Kitty was a great friend and Jean hated to see her so stressed out. It would defintily be good to get her out of a while.
Kitty smiled back at Jean. Her friend was right, it would probably do her good to get out of the lab for awhile.
"Let's say...Saturday, if that works for you?"
Jean nodded. "Saturday would be great. And I know just the place too." She said with a smile. "I'll let you get back to work. Just, promise me you won't work yourself too hard."